i'm so tired but i can't sleep

i am so tired.  seriously-  i could probably sleep for days.

it's not even like i'm physically tired-- more like mentally exhausted.  lately there are so many things to do in a 24 hour period that half way through the day i go on cruise control and just kind of "check out".... it's so not like me.

i've always been the over achiever.  the one who takes care of things and gets things done but i am totally burning out.

in the last two weeks i find myself daydreaming about being taken care of in a variety of ways: at work, in my relationships, by the universe.  ultimately i know that this longing for my pillow is really a longing for the meditation pillow.  it's time to sit my ass down and receive, right?

breathe.  calm the fuck down.  that is what my inner voice is telling me. 

so i'm listening-- was trying to take a fiver at work right now to get clear....but someone just turned on the tv right next to my desk and the chaos continues.......  xo xo xo