Wednesday, February 22, 2012

hangin' 'round downtown by myself and i had too much caffeine

waking up early  walking down eighth avenue passed abingdon square  passed flowers that i like and will not buy  i get coffee knowing that i will not finish it  i like it  the way it smells  the way it feels warm in my hands

bleeker to cornelia  (one of my favorite morning streets)  i walk this walk again my mind is steps ahead of me

west fourth  washington square park i stop  i sit  i think  i may even drink my coffee  who cares

la guardia place  i get one to go  and wander    wonder

west broadway   wooster   greene   mercer  when i used to be somebody worthwhile

i stop and look at the door but never go in  i never go in  keep walking keep breathing i say to myself  it doesn't matter now  what's done is done  it hurts   i know  i know  don't think about it  i try to make myself believe i can keep it away   pretend it never happened    but it did    i was   i'm not  anymore

can't get lost  i know these streets too well  they look like me   in the morning    when they're empty   and left alone

broome  passed mulberry passed mott  passed orchard ludlow

shhh don't tell  on ludlow i lived a different life than the one that i live now 

essex  delancy i'm still nursing that coffee  tired of holding it   it's getting late  and i'm not ready   i laugh knowing that i will never be ready    still walking  wbb   for a moment i catch up   i am present   the water pacifies me  lulles me to a quiet place  wherever that is   i'll get there someday

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