nothing means a thing to me no nothing means a thing to me

11:49 am friday

officially checked out

i'm kind of done with other people not holding up to their respective responsibilities.  i used to care.  i over cared.  i wanted everyone to be happy and everything to be perfect and if i had to, i would do everything myself.

this changes now.

i took an inventory of my life at the moment and realized: i don't care

i don't care if everyone in the whole world is mad at me, or hates me-- they'll get over it eventually and if they don't, good, i'll finally be left alone.

i don't care what happens with the lease on my apartment-- whatever it is, i can deal with it.

i don't care if i get replaced-- i'm sure there is a place for me somewhere

i don't care what i do, where i go, what i say...........it doesn't matter.  the sun is still going to rise and it's still going to set and the world is going to keep turning.

it's time to stop holding my breath and praying for things to change.

this time i am just going to let go and let change do it's fucking thing.

i don't care.