we're out there havin fun in the warm california sun....

i was just thinking about how the air is different in the summer.  how a breeze could be warm.  how a gust of wind could be gentle...nearly as soft as a whisper in your ear.  how the air hangs heavy around your shoulders.  how the sun sits lower in the sky...as if it is extending out it's rays for you to sleep on.

one of the best feelings in the whole world is falling asleep with the sun shining on your skin.  falling asleep to the hum of lawn mowers and ringing of ice cream trucks.  that's when you finally slow yourself down enough to smell the fresh cut grass and the salty air...that's when you feel each strand of your hair stuck to your skin as you turn your head to shield your eyes from the sun.

you know that feeling when you have soaked up as much sun as possible that you decide to cool off in the pool or the ocean......and that first time your toe hits the water it like, shocks your entire system because it's so cold compared to the heat of your body?  it's the kind of cold that feels good.

i could stand in that moment forever.  with my feet burried in the sand, ankle deep in water, watching the waves come in and go out.

i could sit forever on the edge of my parents pool with my legs dangling over the edge- my feet submerged in water.

when you live in the city- you miss summer.  or you experience a different kind of summer.

i kind of miss the sound of the crickets as i fall asleep at night.  i kind of miss a sky full of stars.  i kind of miss meals on the deck and afternoons in the grass.

maybe i won't live here forever.  maybe i just won't