hold on to nothing as fast as you can .....still

maybe

deep in my subconscious

i believe

that if i stare at the blank screen long enough

words

will appear


my thoughts will write themselves.


because i've been sitting here

on 13 notebooks stacked on my desk chair

thinking


i was thinking about all the things i should be doing

instead of what i was actually doing

which was

nothing


i am experiencing a serious lack of inspiration


maybe if i had a box of crayola crayons i could color my way out of this empty space

one more reason

not

to stay inside the lines


i can't

i won't

i don't


everthing that i write is complete and utter nonsense. 

maybe i will delete my blog tomorrow morning.