then one days she's satisfied and the next i'll find her cryin and it's nothing she can explain

i'm not happy about being back.  not even a little bit. 

and that unhappiness is so overwhelming that like, i slept through what was left of yesterday and most of today.  

i don't want to deal with the low level depression.  not today.



for a week- everything made sense.  every breath, every step, every decision.  

but right now everything feels up in the air.  everything.

chaos