And even though nobody's looking she's falling apart

everything looks fine right?

better than fine.

good- even.

but like- it's not.

i can't focus.  i can't bring myself back.  i'm gone.

sometimes i think it's better to let yourself fall.  let yourself go.  whatever, right?

i am thinking in song lyrics

"hold onto nothing as fast as we can"

"i'll fake it through the day with some help from johnny walker red"

"i know you better than you fake it"

all i want to do is pull the covers over my head.  drop out.  tune out.  sleep.